Rascal

For years now I have been getting my geriatric cat shaved about once a year.  I just recently shaved her a couple weeks ago and it seems to have really taken a toll on her or she is starting to look her age.  She will be 17 years old in just a couple weeks.  But with in the last couple of days I have noticed how skinny and sickly she is.  I don’t know if I just notice it more since she has been shaved or she really has lost a lot of weight in the last couple of weeks.  Since I got her shaved all she really does is sleep in my bed and I rarely see her anywhere else. 

I use to think she would have another good couple of years but now I feel like she has days or even weeks…A couple days ago she pretty much stopped eating her dry cat food so yesterday I went and bought so wet canned food and tuna.  She has eaten some but not enough to sustain herself.

A part of my feels like I should just take her to the vet and help her move on but just the though of that makes me cry again.  I’m beginning to be one of those family members’ from work who can let their sickly hospice grandma pass on.  I have had here for so long I can’t even imagine my house without her.

I feel like since I got her shaved it has only made her weaker and I feel like it is my fault but I have to understand that she is old and has had a full wonderful life and understand that death isn’t always bad.  I have learned this in the 2 years of my nursing career. 

Well whatever happens if she lives for another couple days/weeks/months/years I will always love her!